WHEN JUSTICE COMES CALLING
HALIFAX, Nova Scotia, June 28, 2024 – Just because God’s justice is unavoidable doesn’t mean you have to like it.
Jesus didn’t want to be crucified. Even at the 11th hour, he tried to find a way to wriggle out of it. When he finally accepted that no other option was on the table, he bowed and powered through it. But that doesn’t mean he wanted it or liked what was happening to him. Agreeing with God’s justice and realizing it’s unavoidable doesn’t mean you have to like it. You’d have to be a sadist or a masochist to like it. You just don’t fight against it.
Former Christendom is devolving into a strange hybrid of Babylon and Sodom. It’s a spiritual and cultural disaster everywhere you look with no reprieve but in the Kingdom. I hate living in this hybrid, but I also know that it’s God’s justice, so I have no intention of fighting it. You can’t have whole nations turning their backs on God and then expect life to be grand. It doesn’t work that way. You turn your back on God, he’ll accept it and leave you to the demons that you’ve chosen. Because if you turn your back on God, there’s nothing left but the demons.
I’ve recently returned the city after nearly three years of living in rural areas. I never thought I’d live in a city again, but here I am. You go where you’re called. In the city, the curses Moses warned us about in Deuteronomy 28 are more obvious than they were in the country. Everywhere I look, there’s decay and disintegration without the softening effects of a breathtaking view. Everywhere, born-and-bred Canadians have become strangers in their own land.
I will not fight this, not the way that people here are starting to fight it through protests and boycotts and publicly voicing their outrage. You can’t stop the rot and the invasion because they’re earned rewards: what was done is done and cannot be undone. You can’t stop the delivery of earned rewards, but you can slow their impact with a different kind of fighting – the kind that Jesus taught us. The stand-your-ground kind of fighting. The treat-others-as-you-want-to-be-treated tactical offense.
I don’t like what’s happening to the place I used to call home, even though I understand why it’s happening. Yet understanding why it’s happening doesn’t make it any more palatable to me. Some days I have to work very, very hard at accepting that the rot and disintegration are earned rewards. Like Jesus in the hours before his execution, I try to find another way around the inevitable, and God lets me try. My unvoiced anger is a natural and healthy response to what lies before me; if I weren’t angered by what I see, I wouldn’t be God’s child. How can you look at the way things are and not be angry? The way things are is God’s justice playing out in real time, the delivery of the curses foretold in scripture.
My anger is not with God.
I am reminded of the holy angels written about in Revelation and elsewhere who very cooly behold and describe the horrors unfolding before them as God delivers his Judgement. Rather than rushing to save the “victims” or tearing at their robes and moaning “Why? Why?”, the angels stare the rot straight in the face without flinching. Some of them even participate in delivering God’s Judgement.
Jesus never fought against the earned rewards of his people. His battle was solely with those who misrepresented God and his Word. The Roman occupation and all the horrors it unleashed was an earned reward. The demonic occupation today and all the horrors it’s unleashing is likewise an earned reward. Nothing and no-one can convince me otherwise.
There’ll either be suffering now or suffering later, but you can’t imagine there won’t be any suffering or that no penance is required.
I would rather have the suffering now and get it over with.
But I don’t have to like it.
SCATTERED
HALIFAX, Nova Scotia, June 21, 2024 – We’re scattered now, scattered each to his own place.
Scripture says it will be given to him to scatter the power of the holy people, and so it has, so he has. We no longer live in communal settings like the early Church, or in convents and monasteries like the later worldly church; we live alone, aware there are others like us but not knowing who they are or where they are, only knowing that they are, and that they’re here.
Still here.
Scattered, but still here.
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I’m still here. Twenty-five years into my rebirth (and counting), I’m still here, protected under God like a restless chick under the proverbial hen’s wing. Without God’s 24/7 protection I wouldn’t be here; none of us would be. The devil doesn’t come to us waving a pitchfork, with horns sprouting from his head; he sidles up to us sweet-smelling and smooth-talking and offering us a hand up or a hand-out when we need it most, but only if we’ll agree to this one little thing….
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We’re scattered now, scattered but not broken. It’s possible for kingdoms to continue broken for a time before the final breakdown, like a car cruising on fumes when the gas gauge is on “E”. Jerusalem cruised on “E” for a few more decades after Jesus’ resurrection. But we, in the Kingdom, are not on “E”. We’ll never be on “E”. The Kingdom is a strong as it’s ever been, though there are considerably fewer born-agains in it now. Being fewer, each of us needs to have the faith of 10 or, better still, the faith of 10,000.
Those mountains aren’t going to move themselves.
Elijah stood alone against hundreds of the devil’s prophets, defeating them all (though it wasn’t Elijah who defeated them but God working through him, just like it’s not us moving the mountains but God’s Spirit moving them through us).
Every day is moving day in the Kingdom of God.
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We need to think of Saul, King Saul, and how he thought he had it all, until he didn’t. He lost what he’d been given because he didn’t understand the importance of obeying God. Saul thought his way was at times the better way, but that’s not how it works with God. If God tells you to do something, you do it; if he tells you not to do something, you don’t do it. Easy-peasy, right? So simple, even a two-year-child can understand it.
Then why couldn’t King Saul?
Humbling yourself under the mighty hand of God is sometimes easier said than done. Sometimes, the spiritual fog is so thick, you can’t see the way forward and so take matters into your own hands, even if it means directly disobeying God. This course of action never ends well. There is never a time when you disobey a direct command of God and it turns out well for you. Show me one example in scripture of that happening. You can’t, because there is none.
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Louisiana has made it mandatory for all classrooms to display the Ten Commandments on the wall, and other states are indicating they’ll soon follow. This may sound like a win, but what can the people then use as a cloak for their sin if they know the Commandments and then break them with impunity? Because Western civilization is all about breaking the Commandments with impunity and with the blessings of society and the state. Heck, even self-professed Christians break the Commandments daily, the main one being honoring their mother and father.
The only one who benefits from people knowing the Ten Commandments and yet choosing to break them is the devil.
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We’re in the days of Noah and have been for some time. There are now billions of Sauls running around on “E”, kings of their own castles taking matters into their own hands, knowing what’s right but instead choosing what seems expedient at the time. The Ten Commandments on the wall will only make things worse for them. You cannot preach the Word to those who don’t want to hear it. Jesus never preached to the bored. You can wallpaper the entire world with the Ten Commandments, but if people don’t want to follow them, there’s nothing to be done.
God respects everyone’s free will and so should we.
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We born-again believers have the Ten Commandments graven on our heart, so we have no excuse for not following them. But we didn’t learn to love the Commandments and then learn to love God. No. We weren’t force-fed the Commandments and then told at gunpoint to love God. No. We were born-again and loved God like a newborn loves its mother, and in so doing loved his Commandments. First comes rebirth and then the love of God and his Commandments, and none of this is forced on us. We obey God because we love God.
Like David, I crave the Commandments and would be lost without them. I thank God for his Commandments. Like David, I too think about them night and day and weigh my thoughts and actions against them. Am I loving God with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength, and am I treating others as I’d want to be treated? These are the only questions that matter, really. They may in fact be the only ones asked at The Gate, if any are in fact going to be asked.
It’ll go something like this: “Did you love God with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength, and did you show it by treating others as you want to be treated?”
If you heard that today, if you were asked that today standing at The Gate, could you honestly say “Yes”, or is there room for improvement? If you’re still here and reading this, I guarantee you there’s room for improvement. If you’re still here, there’s room for improvement.
Better get it right, because the rest is just noise.
DOOR WIDE SHUT
HALIFAX, Nova Scotia, June 18, 2024 – When I was born again, God shut the door to evil. I didn’t have to do anything to keep the evil at bay; God did that for me as one of the signature terms of service of his grace. He continues to keep that door firmly shut even today, 25 years into my rebirth.
But I also bear some responsibility for maintaining my grace. There are a few doors that God won’t close but that he may advise me to close, as a test of sorts (and as a nod to my ongoing free will). These “test” doors, once shut, I dare not reopen. As tempting as it might be to open them just a crack to see what’s happening on the other side (or to get down on my hands and knees and peer underneath the door), I must never do those things. When God means business he means business, and when he commands us to shut the door, he means shut the door, and shut it for good.
I received such a command a few nights ago in a dream. I dreamt that I was lying on my side facing a wall, drowsing. Behind my back, evil was creeping toward me from the next room. I could see it coming through God’s eyes, but I was too tired to do anything about it. Closer and closer the evil approached the open doorway (the way my cat used to creep toward me, but only when I blinked), until suddenly God commanded me to shut the door.
I heard God loud and clear, but I was too comfortably relaxed in my warm bed to get up. I wanted to keep on drowsing and so I ignored God’s voice. That’s when he turned up the volume and changed his tone and his command became both a warning and a wake-up call:
“SHUT THE DOOR!”
This caught my attention, and in my dream, I immediately sprang out of bed and rushed to shut the door before the evil could slip through.
It’s easy to be lulled into spiritual complacency. It’s easy to ignore God’s voice when we’re side-tracked with “non-God” things. It’s easy to slide into a comfortable slumber, turning our back on possible dangers and expecting God to take care of us. What isn’t always easy is shutting the door and keeping it shut. There’ll be any number of excuses as to why the door could remain just slightly ajar or why it shouldn’t be shut at all but left wide open. Satan is very good at devising excuses and justifying exceptions to counter God’s commands, like he did in the Garden of Eden. And we’re very good at buying Satan’s lies, like Eve and Adam once did.
What about you? Are there any doors that God has commanded you to shut lately? Have you, like me in my dream, pushed God’s voice aside and left the door wide open, letting the evil draw closer and closer to you? Or did you, as soon as you heard God’s voice, immediately rush over and slam the door shut?
Evil comes in many forms. As born-again believers, we have enormous protection in our day-to-day dealings with the world and we’re also protected while we sleep, but that doesn’t mean we should expect God to do everything for us. God is not going to keep every form of evil at bay from us; some forms of evil God will even permit to approach very close to us, unless we do as he says and shut the door.
I know the form of evil that God was alluding to in my dream. I have since shut the door on it and resolved to keep it shut permanently, but I know I can’t do that without God’s help, as this particular form of evil is highly alluring to me, the way the Tree of Knowledge was alluring to Eve or the dark arts were to Solomon. Not all curiosity is healthy. I can even point to the many alleged benefits of succumbing to this particular temptation, but none of them come from God. When God says to shut, we’re to shut, not to argue or whine or attempt to strike a bargain. Nor should we roll over and keep on slumbering as if we hadn’t heard God.
What God says to shut, we’re to shut, and never open again.
WHAT HE SAID
HALIFAX, Nova Scotia, June 16, 2024 – Jesus is our gold standard. During his time on Earth in a human body, Jesus had the full measure of God’s Spirit, which means that everything Jesus said was God speaking through him. Jesus wasn’t God, but God spoke directly through him by his Holy Spirit. Having the full measure of God’s Spirit gave Jesus ultimate authority in everything he taught.
If Jesus is our gold standard, then everything else must be compared to Jesus. Moreover, what Jesus said in the New Testament takes precedence over whatever was said in the Old Testament, if what Jesus said conflicts with the Old Testament. So, for instance, it’s no longer hate and kill your enemies, it’s love and bless your enemies; it’s no longer get a bill of divorce, it’s divorce leads to adultery (so don’t do it); it’s no longer shun the lepers, it’s heal the lepers; it’s no longer gather riches to yourself, it’s give all your riches away.
I mention this as a preamble to a critically important teaching that is more, in fact, a fact, which is – we are followers of Jesus, not followers of his disciples. The New Testament covenant is with Jesus, not with Peter or with Paul or with any of our other brethren mentioned in scripture. Our allegiance is to Jesus, and Jesus has the final word if something he says conflicts with something someone else says in the Bible or elsewhere. Everything Jesus said was the word of God, which is why (spoiler alert!) Jesus is called the Word.
Paul famously had a lot to say as a follower of Jesus, and some of it has been recorded in the New Testament. But not everything Paul said and wrote was from God. He wasn’t Jesus; he was Paul, and as Paul, he didn’t have the full measure of God’s Spirit like Jesus had while on Earth, which means that sometimes Paul spoke or wrote amiss, as we all do (not having the full measure of God’s Spirit). Just because what Paul said or wrote is included in the New Testament doesn’t mean it’s correct. We need to be very careful to distinguish the words of Jesus from those of others. Jesus’ words we can take the bank; the words of others we need to carefully weigh against Jesus’ words to see if they balance, to see if they fit with what Jesus taught us.
One example is the spiritual fate of the genetic children of Israel. Paul was adamant that God continued to favour his genetically “chosen people” over everyone else and that they ultimately would triumph spiritually as a people, not as individuals, whereas Jesus (and Old Testament prophets like Isaiah) made it clear that genetics had nothing to do with salvation, and that the people formerly known as chosen were no more favoured by God than anyone else and had no more guaranteed claim to Paradise than anyone else. This is a thorny issue for many believers, but it shouldn’t be. Again, Jesus has the final word here, not Paul or anyone else.
Another example is Paul’s demoting of women to secondary status to men, especially when it came to roles of leadership and teaching in the Church. Paul tried to silence women’s voices, whereas Jesus amplified them. We know that Jesus amplified them because he was constantly defending his female followers and in so doing giving them a voice and teaching us that they needed to be heard as much as his male followers. In the Kingdom, there is no distinction between male and female or Jew and non-Jew or old and young. We are all the same in God’s eyes, endowed with his same Spirit (though to different measures).
To me, it is highly telling and symbolic that God chose Mary Magdalene as the first human to see Jesus after he rose and the first one to the bear the news of his resurrection. Unfortunately, many of the male followers dismissed her claims, only later to be sharply corrected by Jesus. Worldly Christianity may have evolved over the centuries as a male-centric belief system, but Jesus didn’t plant a male-centric belief system, not according to his recorded words and actions. Again, it’s to Jesus that we need to look for guidance, not to his followers, if what his followers say conflicts with what Jesus taught us.
Jesus is our gold standard for everything in life. We look to him to inform us through his words recorded in scripture and – just as importantly – we look to him in prayer, where we meet with him one-on-one in real time, which is a privilege promised to his born-again believers. If a teaching or a position doesn’t line up with what Jesus has said or shown us, we need to reject it. God has given us a Spirit of discernment for just such a reason, but it’s up to us to use it.
By all means, read the words of Paul and of other followers of Jesus, but remember that they aren’t infallible. There is much wisdom in them, but they aren’t infallible. Use the measure of the Holy Spirit that God’s given you to discern what is true and what is not, and weigh everything – EVERYTHING – against the Word.
JEREMIAH IN CHAINS
HALIFAX, Nova Scotia, June 13, 2024 – Jeremiah left Jerusalem in chains. Along with the other prisoners, Jeremiah had to walk the perp walk of shame, shackled and humiliated, while Jerusalem lay smoldering in ruins behind him.
It didn’t matter that Jeremiah had spent years begging people to turn back to God to avoid this very thing. It didn’t matter that he’d already done hard time in a slime pit and elsewhere with only a scrap of bread a day to sustain him. He had to suffer along with everyone else, sinner or not, deserved or not. It’s what he signed up for as a prophet.
And why not? Being a prophet of God is not all wine and roses. Jesus wore a crown of thorns, not roses, and was offered vinegar on the cross, not wine. He suffered what he hadn’t earned and endured cruelties for our sake as well as for his. Why should it be any different for us or for Jeremiah? Why should it have been worse for Jesus than for us?
This is a hard truth for many who allege to be followers of Jesus. They recoil at the pick-up-your-cross-daily part of the requirements, the perp-walk-of-shame part of the deal, the grinding poverty part of everyday reality that characterizes true disciples of Jesus, and so they gravitate towards the false prophets who promise them a life of prosperity and blessings. Yet all genuine prophets have had a rough go of it, including Jesus – especially Jesus – because the higher a soul strives, the more that soul will be targeted and tested.
I love God so much it hurts sometimes. But that doesn’t exempt me from being tested and tried. Being a child of God guarantees you’ll be tested and tried until you’re finally fitted for your own crown of thorns.
The roses come later, if and when you make it Home.
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I stayed for a few weeks in a household of a few dozen assorted humans, none of whom (other than me) claimed to be Christian. Theoretically, that should mean I was the kindest, most generous, and most patient among the residents, but the reality is far from the truth. I’m humbled by what some of them taught me from their place of unbelief. Even so, knowing I’m a Christian, a few of them watched me like a hawk, swooping in on occasion to bait me, expecting me to snap at them or let loose a tirade or (even better) launch into a sermon so they could have their “gotcha!” moment and triumphantly march me to the door. Thank God I didn’t snap, though I was tempted. Thank God that God keeps me reined in, at least in public.
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I wandered into a worship service last Sunday and then a few minutes later wandered back out. The music (live band with amplifiers) was ear-splitting and I had the sense that I was at a rock concert rather than a church service. I’m open to accepting that the fault was all mine for having sensitive ears and expectations that didn’t line up with reality, but is it wrong to expect people to turn off their smartphone and do without their sippy-cup of coffee for just one hour? To me, it’s not enough that they “at least made the effort” to show up on a Sunday morning, any more than it’s enough for a student to pass a course just for showing up in class. Showing up is not the required effort; doing your best at the task at hand is the required effort.
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We can only imagine what was going through Jeremiah’s mind as he trudged out of Jerusalem in chains, knowing he’d never return and that Jerusalem and its temple would never return, not to their former glory. Jeremiah was as near starvation as the rest of the prisoners and just as shell-shocked and traumatized by the horrors they’d witnessed, yet he would also likely have been expected to endure more stoically than the others, being a prophet of God. He would have been expected to boost the morale and have a timely, encouraging word from God for them. He would have been expected to be more than merely Jeremiah in chains.
Prophets are always expected to be more than merely human.
We, as born-again believers, bear our own chains. We bear them daily and in all circumstances and some of them are ungodly heavy and cut into us. But the chains don’t come from God, they come from the world, and we’ll bear them as long as we’re here on Earth. The world not only expects us to bear them, it demands that we bear them and that we do so publicly. They like to see us bowed down by their weight. It makes them feel justified for rejecting God.
And if you’re thinking there must be a way for you, on your own volition, to quietly slip out of your chains – remember that God permits them for your edification, and what God permits, you need to endure. God will remove your chains when it’s time. No point in trying to pray them away. The heaviest of Jeremiah’s chains were removed by an enemy of Israel (who had respect for him as a prophet of God, though Israel didn’t), and the rest of his chains Jeremiah bore until he went Home.
This is how it will be for us, because again – why should doing hard time on Earth be any easier for us than it was for Jeremiah or for Jesus?
FIVE RIGHTEOUS SOULS, AND COUNTING
HALIFAX, Nova Scotia, June 9, 2024 – YouTube’s algorithm recommended a video to me a while ago featuring a YouTube prophet with a following of nearly a million. I know he had a following of nearly a million because that’s the first thing he mentioned in the recommended video. But rather than rejoicing that he was reaching so many people with (what I hope was) the Word, the YouTube prophet was instead lamenting that he “only” had nearly a million subscribers and that he was praying to get millions more.
This got me thinking about Jesus and about how many followers he had during his ministry years. We don’t know exactly how many he had (and I suspect he didn’t know, either, unless God told him), but their numbers waxed and waned according to what he was preaching. When Jesus was preaching about love and healing and being showered with blessings, the numbers were high; when he was preaching about loving your enemies and doing without, the numbers dropped off. Towards the end of Jesus’ time on Earth, the numbers dropped off especially precipitously (leveling off at nearly 0 at one point) before slowly and steadily climbing to where they are today.
But where are they today? What I mean is: how many genuine followers does Jesus have? I’m not talking self-professed followers; I mean people marked by God and filled with God’s Holy Spirit. How many of these do you reckon Jesus has today? I’d wager it’s a lot fewer than the YouTube prophet’s “nearly a million”. I doubt it even breaks 10,000. Whatever it is, it’s a number known only to God (and maybe now also to Jesus).
The exact number of Jesus’ genuine followers is important, though, because it determines how much more time we have before the Judgement. Remember how Abraham bargained with God to forestall the destruction of Sodom if a certain number of righteous people lived there? Abraham was a pretty good negotiator because he bargained God all the way down to five righteous souls. Abraham probably thought that five righteous souls would be a slam-dunk – what self-respecting metropolis couldn’t come up with at least five righteous souls? Sadly, Sodom couldn’t.
So numbers are important, just not the way the YouTube prophet views them. Also important is the degree of a soul’s righteousness. Every righteous soul has a specific degree of righteousness, depending on the measure of the Holy Spirit that God has granted that soul. Another word for degree is value, but most people don’t like the word “value” in relation to souls. They don’t like the thought that some people’s souls have a higher value than others, even though it’s true. God loves us all the same, but that doesn’t negate the fact that our souls have different spiritual values depending on the choices we make.
There’s a threshold for righteousness in a soul. When the value is below that threshold, the soul is considered unrighteous; when it’s at or above the threshold, it’s considered righteous, and the more righteous choices that soul makes, the more righteous it grows. Again, the value of the soul comes from the choices people make, not from something God has or hasn’t done. God measures and designates a soul’s value; he doesn’t impose it.
These spiritual facts are crucial for understanding the state of the world. Just like every individual soul has a spiritual value, so, too, does every family, every neighbourhood, every village and town, every city, every state and province, and every nation. When summed together, these values give the world its total spiritual value.
I don’t think it’s very high these days.
I don’t know my spiritual value. I know I’m born-again and under God’s grace, but I don’t know my spiritual value. I think I’d prefer not to know (lol), kind of like I’d rather not know my exact weight. Better to focus on doing God’s will than worrying about my measured value. I don’t think Jesus thought much about his spiritual value during his time on Earth, any more than he thought about the number of his followers. He didn’t consciously try to raise his spiritual value; he just made sure always to do “that which pleased the Father”. Based on that alone, Jesus’ spiritual value remained higher than anyone else’s before or since.
Credit scores and social credit scores are the world’s latest human valuation products. Of course, you can buy good credit or social credit scores or even cheat your way into them, the way you can game pretty much every aspect of the world (including the algorithms that designate how many followers you have on YouTube). But God you can’t cheat; your spiritual value is measured and designated by God, making it fool-proof. The only measure you should ever be concerned about is God’s valuation of you. Any other value assigned to you by the world can be falsified and is therefore untrustworthy and not worth worrying about.
The takeaway from all this is that Jesus never worried about how the world valued him; his only concern was doing God’s will. As followers of Jesus, we should also not be concerned about what the world thinks of us or the numbers it assigns to us. Yes, God will love us whether we do his will or not, but it’s critical for the future of the world (and for our own soul) that we do God’s will and continue to do it to the end, as Jesus did. Being designated righteous by God and remaining righteous under God’s grace is an enormous privilege that comes with enormous responsibility.
As the scripture about Sodom attests, we’re all that stands between the continuation of the world and its destruction. We are children of God living in God’s Kingdom, so we can’t just do what we want; we need to do what God wants, regardless of the circumstances we find ourselves in at any given time. We need to be righteous and remain righteous in God’s eyes.
The unbelieving world – even as it hates us – is depending on us.
A BORN-AGAIN BELIEVER 